more about blogging

on the same point of blogging and time. why do people spend so much time online on these sites. i already have claimed in my previous entry that i have too much time. correlated with that is if the fact i have few friends. well some of my very good friends are over 5000 miles away with very few within a 1000 mile radius. since i live in dallas and dallas is a city where u sleep, eat and relax and even work when u are not driving and buring gasoline and running up credit. i never am at a place often enough to make connections with people to develop into freinds. so i have alot of aquaintances in dallas. hah! but each of these aquaintances belongs to a different circle of friends and so i am relegated to being their aquinatance. it stops there. so i spend some time at the coffee shop near my place, where some faces have become familiar (havent seen those faces in ages), at teh gym, at work (every one at work is waaay older in mind spirit, body and age), and i try to network the few friends i have made (but since they are poor they dont hang out, or do stuff that excites me). so this is my circumstance and it takes time and effort to develop friends. but c'mon you cant be another miserable soul like me. you have to be one of those i classed above with the trillions of friends that gives me the basic courtesy of a smile.

a clarification - i am very poor at the 'effort' part of making friends. and being poor doesn't help either. i forget to wish people on their b'day (i do remember the day before, and i forget my age always). i come to this online thingy because i like to write, and have done it since before the word blog was coined, i love to tell stories and my perspective, i love to travel alone and sit alone and watch people and animals and... and spend time vaporising clouds and scheming on what i must stir up in which part of the world. friends in the present have no place in this grand scheme of things except for a few that are over 5000 miles from here who used to encourage my eccentricity and make me detail my plans and dreams for this world.

here is what i can use if u are trying to be polite or nice or sympathetic to me - dont be. if you drink - i am in need of atleast one drinking buddy (havent got shit faced in 2 years :( ); if you do stuff that we shud not talk about, i might do the green stuff; if u neither drink, nor smoke do stuff that i need a partner on and then bother to get in touch. i dont like smothering. and i dont know how i will deal with this but responding to my entries could discourage me from wirting further.